外貌天生有各种残缺的孩子 也等到了改变她一生的那句话

外貌天生有各种残缺的孩子也等到了改变她一生的那句话33TheWhisperTest耳语测试IgrewupknowingIwasdifferent,andIhatedit.Iwasbornwithacleftpalate,andwhenIstartedtogotoschool,myclassmates—whowereconstantlyteasing—madeitcleartomehowImustlooktoothers:alittlegirlwithamisshapenlip,crookednose,lopsidedteeth,andhollowandsomewhatgarbledspeech.Icouldn"tevenblowupaballoonwithoutholdingmynose,andwhenIbenttodrinkfromafountain,thewaterspilledoutofmynose.成长的过程中，我一直知道自己和别人不一样，我讨厌这样。我天生唇腭裂，上学后，那些时常取笑我的同学们让我清楚地看到了别人眼中的自己：一个嘴唇畸形、鼻子扭曲、牙齿歪斜、讲话漏风且有些含糊不清的小女孩。要是不捏住鼻子，我甚至连只气球都吹不起来。当我俯身从喷嘴式饮水器喝水时，水会从我的鼻孔里漏出来。Whenmyschoolmatesasked,"Whathappenedtoyourlip?"I"dtellthemthatI"dfallenasababyandcutitonapieceofglass.Somehowitseemedmoreacceptabletohavesufferedanaccidentthantohavebeenborndifferent.BytheageofsevenIwasconvincedthatnooneoutsidemyownfamilycouldeverloveme,orevenlikeme.当同学们问起“你的嘴唇怎么啦？”我会告诉他们我婴儿时摔了一跤，嘴唇被玻璃片给割豁了。说因意外所致似乎比说先天异样更容易被人接受。到了七岁，我已经深信，出了家门没有一个人会爱我，甚至都不会喜欢我。AndthenIenteredthesecondgrade,andMrs.Leonard"sclass.Shewasroundandprettyandfragrant,withshiningbrownhairandwarmdarkeyesthatsmiledevenontherareoccasionswhenhermouthdidn"t.Everyoneadoredher.ButnoonecametolovehermorethanIdid.后来我升入二年级，进了伦纳德夫人的班。她身材丰满，长相靓丽，浑身散发着芳香，还有着一头亮泽的棕发和一双热情的黑眼睛。即便是偶尔嘴上不笑的时候，她那双眼睛里也会流露出微笑。每个人都喜欢她，但没人比我更爱她。Thetimecamefortheannual"hearingtests"givenatourschool.Iwasbarelyabletohearanythingoutofoneear,andwasnotabouttorevealyetanotherproblemthatwouldsinglemeoutasdifferent.AndsoIcheated.Ihadlearnedtowatchotherchildrenandraisedmyhandwhentheydidduringgrouptesting.The"whispertest"however,requiredadifferentkindofdeception:Eachchildwouldgotothedooroftheclassroom,turnsideways,closeoneearwithafinger,andtheteacherwouldwhispersomethingfromherdesk,whichthechildwouldrepeat.Thenthesamethingwasdonefortheotherear.Ihaddiscoveredinkindergartenthatnobodycheckedtoseehowtightlytheuntestedearwasbeingcovered,soImerelypretendedtoblockmine.Asusual,Iwaslast,butallthroughthetestingIwonderedwhatMrs.Leonardmightsaytome.Iknewfrompreviousyearsthatshewhisperedthingslike"Theskyisblue"or"Doyouhavenewshoes?"学校一年一度的“耳语测试”时间到了。我有一只耳朵几乎听不见任何声音，但我不打算暴露又一个会使自己被归为异类的问题。所以我作弊了。在集体测试中，我学会了观察其他孩子的动作，当他们举手时，我也跟着举起手。然而“耳语测试”却需要另一种完全不同的骗术：每个孩子都要走到教室门口，侧过身，用手指堵住一只耳朵，然后老师在她桌子的位置轻声细语，再让孩子复述。另一只耳朵也要同样来一遍。早在上幼儿园的时候，我就发现其实没有人会检查你该捂住的那只耳朵捂得有多严实，因此我只是假装堵住了自己的耳朵。和往常一样，我是最后一个。但在整个测试期间我都在琢磨伦纳德夫人可能会对我说些什么。我打探到前几年她低语的都是“天空是蓝色的”或者“你有新鞋子么？”之类的话。Myturncameup.Iturnedmybadeartoherplugginguptheothersolidlywithmyfinger,thengentlybackedmyfingeroutenoughtobeabletohear.Iwaitedandthenheardthewordsthatchangedmylifeforever.Mrs.Leonard,thepretty,fragrantteacherIadored,saidsoftly,"Iwishyouwere